Lips Like Morphine

Well, I’ve just tried to sleep. But, something happened. Something incredibly extra ordinary.
I was laying there for a while listening to my iPod. I think it was Say Anything feat Hayley Williams – The Church Channel.
And I had this dream. Daydream or I don’t know if it was a dream. It was weird
Some weird guy, said that we were all connected and this place was knot. Where all of the lines are tied. And to find happiness, I have to keep moving, dancing, follow the steps and stay in line. But he can’t promise happiness without loss. He’s my shadow, he keeps the lines and knot intact. And then he repeated the “Keep moving…Keep Moving”

And then I wake up listening to the same song over again. It’s like I was being told a message. Though I’m not sure what it was. The funny thing was, I was thinking about fate around 10 minutes before it happened. Maybe this is a message to me. “I can’t promise happiness without loss”, seems like it’s taken from my mind.
But Christ did it shake me. I’m completely awake now. Pondering what he said.

So, this place is a knot. Where all my lines connect. Hmm.
I feel like I haven’t seen the last of this thing/guy. Amazingly enough, I can’t sleep now. I fell awake like a perfect rest.

So, I’ll keep moving and stay in line.

By the by, this is The Church Channel.

I wake up in a room and realize I’m insane again

This is the fifth time straight in a year I’ve ended up in here
Eating p.b.j’s and watching the church channel nightly
I didn’t mind what I did
I fell behind on my nightly four-course meal of rainbow pills
And now I’m wondering what is fake and what is real
But who’s that ghost who keeps walking by my door
I’ve never seen a girl look so good in thick-rimmed glasses before
And I feel her watching me during sleeping hours
And when I shower
They let us play with markers but I keep trying to draw infinity
And I read the bible to pass the time
But one day out of nowhere, she sits down and looks over my shoulder
I’m shaking harder then I’ve ever shook before.
She sings:
“Oh, don’t you remember me? Is your mind that worn?
We both were born to be one with that which the public scorned
Though you were forlorn in despair with your drugs and your hardcore porn
Trust me, those days won’t be mourned. so lay your head on me.”
Lay your head onto me.

Sunday Best

Well, after a nice night drinking and dancing with some mates. I must say I can’t go out two nights in a row anymore, I’m kind of feeling sick now. Like a cold. It’s weird. I don’t usually get sick.
Has my body finally succumbed to the damage I’ve been letting it take throughout my 18 years?
Probably. But I say I have a good 50 years of damage to go through. Unless fate has other plans for me.

I’m also back into taking pictures now. It’s fun for now. And if all of my plans go into the abyss, I’ll just become a photographer, taking pictures of weddings and such. I mean, there’s always a demand for those kinds of things.

Amongst these thoughts of mine, fate has come into play, I’m starting to really believe that fate exists. That we’re all connected in some way and that our paths are pre-determined. It’s been in my mind since I met that girl on the bus. I met her when I needed someone to talk to and she listened to me. Then a month later, I met her on the bus, she was in tears, so for the whole ride home we talked and I consoled her. Since then, I’ve never seen her. We met eachother when we both needed someone. Maybe it’s just pure coincidence or it’s fate. I, for one, believe it’s fate.

In other news, tomorrow is the 17th of May and Norway’s National Day. So I’ll be taking tons of pictures and there’ll probably be a huge photo update next post.

Coffee and Cigarettes

I just found this really interesting and shows the actual homophobia in today’s young world…

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Yeah, I understand they ban certain words, but if a homosexual man wants to open his sexuality into a gaming community, the let the man, I mean, should the fact that he is homosexual affect the gaming experience? Of course not, even if he shoots you in the head in game, it doesn’t mean he’ll try to anally penetrate you. Jeez. The world needs to lay off, if a person wants to like men, then they can. Same goes for women if they like women, let them. Is it just me, or do Lesbians have an easier time? I believe they do. It’s all to show that we’re still not equal in this world. Even though we’d like to admit it, we’re not. We will never be “equal” to all other types of people on Earth. It’s a innate human behaviour to want to be better than the rest. It’s obvious. Though, racism is still not solved either. I mean, I’m even one of these people, due to a certain event that happened. I do make racist remarks at times, but I do never mean them. I know a lot of people who do mean whatever they say to the black man. Which isn’t always a good thing…

Anyway, I just wanted to start talking about that article and I go on babbling into other things. So, I’ll end the post with a Photoshopped picture.

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King of Wishful Thinking

Well, I moved my blog.
I just felt like the Crushcrushcrush moniker was getting old.
So guys. This is where Nemi will post his blabberful comments. And yes, I did take the blog name from a Boys Like Girls song. So? I like it. Better than “Nemi’s Gay Enterprises” which was my second choice.

So all I’ve been up to lately is GTA IV. Nothing more really. I’ve been spending hours on end with Looshkin and Mike on Multiplayer, thus creating Nemi’s Gay Enterprises.

The other news is I’m going to see Paramore soon. Again? Why not? They’re a great live act and I love traveling.

So, until next time, which will be soon I hope…